She doesn't think he likes it. She just struggles with it when she has the luxury of time to struggle with it. She also spent about a year away from the killing fields and it was a pretty good year all things considered. Getting back to it was like riding a bike in some ways but mentally it was harder especially when the need was sporadic instead of semi-constant.

"I know. You would if you could."

She looks over to where Ben is standing still practicing. "He's lucky to have you."