[It would be easier if he didn't. She's used to dealing with cruelty and indifference; that was her life on Jakku. She didn't have to care about anybody because nobody cared about her.
But Han and the others do, and she wants so desperately to please them, to prove herself worthy of their regard so they don't leave her. She knows she's a disappointment, because she can't accept "Ben Solo." Any day now they'll give up on her.
She turns around so he can't see the tears she hastily wipes away. There's no point getting upset over the inevitable. She'll learn to live with it the way she's learned to live with everything else. As long as she can have even a small part in helping the Resistance destroy the First Order, her life won't be a waste.]
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[It would be easier if he didn't. She's used to dealing with cruelty and indifference; that was her life on Jakku. She didn't have to care about anybody because nobody cared about her.
But Han and the others do, and she wants so desperately to please them, to prove herself worthy of their regard so they don't leave her. She knows she's a disappointment, because she can't accept "Ben Solo." Any day now they'll give up on her.
She turns around so he can't see the tears she hastily wipes away. There's no point getting upset over the inevitable. She'll learn to live with it the way she's learned to live with everything else. As long as she can have even a small part in helping the Resistance destroy the First Order, her life won't be a waste.]