No. [It comes out vehemently, because she hates that stupid awful planet and the petty squalid life she lived there.
And yet, in the next moment, she feels an equally desperate desire to say Yes. At least she would have some room to breathe, space away from people and the complicated feelings she isn't able to process in the tightly confined ship. And despite what Maz told her, a part of her is still terrified that her family will go back to Jakku for her, but she won't be there. A small portion of her heart insists that, if Han came back for his son, then surely her mother will come back for her. If Han can overcome all the problems that drove him and his son apart, her mother can overcome whatever reasons she had to leave Rey behind.]
Maybe. I don't know.
[She knows the universe isn't fair, but she feels like, if she accepts being completely abandoned by her family while Kylo Ren the mass murderer gets to enjoy the love of his, she'll break.]
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And yet, in the next moment, she feels an equally desperate desire to say Yes. At least she would have some room to breathe, space away from people and the complicated feelings she isn't able to process in the tightly confined ship. And despite what Maz told her, a part of her is still terrified that her family will go back to Jakku for her, but she won't be there. A small portion of her heart insists that, if Han came back for his son, then surely her mother will come back for her. If Han can overcome all the problems that drove him and his son apart, her mother can overcome whatever reasons she had to leave Rey behind.]
Maybe. I don't know.
[She knows the universe isn't fair, but she feels like, if she accepts being completely abandoned by her family while Kylo Ren the mass murderer gets to enjoy the love of his, she'll break.]